I tend to find my blogging pattern over the last year or so is to write a post once a month, usually in the last few days of said month. Sometimes I’ve quite a lot I want to say, but in others I’m scratching around for a topic. As you may have guessed, this is one of the latter moments! So I’m going to call this something of a ‘check-in’ post, which is my polite way of saying I may be going on a ramble…
Anyway, the writing, and the point of the title. Thankfully, I’m back writing on a frequent basis. I’ve had a little idea buzzing away in the recesses of my mind for a little while, and I was reluctant to act upon it because it seemed so different to anything that has gone before. The usual procrastination and fear, basically. First up, a first-person narrative, which I feel much more unaccomplished at than I used to. Second, a female narrator. Gulp. And third, a female narrator who is 16 years old. An unholy triumvirate if ever there was.
I always feel a complete fraud when writing a female narrator. Of course women are human beings too (so I’ve been told, arf arf!) but I do struggle with getting the voice natural and realistic. The third character of my novel Gaslight was a woman, and in some ways she was the easiest to write, because the character appeared almost whole and was ready to take me on a journey whenever the muse showed up and sprinkled her magic dust around. But this narrator – she’s a lot more slippery. I can’t quite get a handle on her, or what she’s going to do next. And her age makes me feel a little bit of a voyeur, too. Particularly when writing about sex (already done) and violence (likely to come). All you can do is tell the truth, of course, which will always offend someone. But I’m not getting a huge amount of enjoyment out of it currently. Leading me in directions I’m not looking forward to going down.
What does make me happy though is that it’s going to end up novella length, certainly Momentum in word count, perhaps even a short novel. Which I think is probably my optimum scenario. Of everything I’ve ever written, Momentum is the one that has stayed with me the most. This is partly because of the difficult personal circumstances that I was under when writing it, which made it different in style and tone to anything I’d ever done. But also it came out exactly as long as it needed to be. My novels are certainly too long, and some of my short stuff lacks depth, but that one came out perfect. And I think a 25 to 40,000 word count is just right in many ways. Long enough to get your teeth into but a first draft that can be written in a couple of months, so not daunting like a novel can be.
So it feels likes this current story is a sea change from what’s gone before. The setting is similar to that of One Night Rebellion, but that is a cosmetic connection more than anything else. And despite this change I’m certain I will go the distance and finish it, which is a niced feeling to have. I’m looking forward to seeing how it will turn out.